You say I walk around as if I don't have feelings
And tho I struggle a lot with these things
I don't struggle conceiling
Sometimes I even wonder why my heart is even beating
See I Could never figure out how to love or the meaning of it
It gets easier over the times
I see you enter my life
And know there's an exit sign
Cause I never want to fight
Or try to work it out
Cause even when im hurt you doubt
Can't even go to church
I'm bad at receiving the word
It's like a bad game of telephone
Na chill my head gone
So even if you knew my past
You'd say it's what you can't condone
Can we use it as stepping Stones
I needed help
Sometimes I'm looking in the mirror and don't recognize my self
What I recognize is someone content with going to hell
Running away from love while chasing after the wealth
I say I love you but it never works out
I try to love but then it never works out
And that's why I keep my head in the clouds
So you can never tell I'm struggling now
Thought you were here to save a broken heart
somehow we ended it before it starts
and girl I know what's hard but
you were my target like I'm throwing darts
I'm falling apart
damn this world is frosted
figured when we started acting cool I believe
the key to unlock all of my heart you can keep
now my house is not a home
that's how I feel I'm so alone
can I text you on my cellular phone
what the hell am I on
it's still on more than a cool with being friends
look I just really want you back so we could talk again
thats stupid
too many arrows in This Heart of Mine
f*** Cupid
but you reloaded don't waste any time
you shoot it
I want to say sorry but sorry didn't do s***
was naturally gaining all your trust
just to lose it
you got a Nigga stuck between try or keep it moving
I would have dryer eyes
if you were by my side
wish I could rewind erasing all of the hurt
you were amazing shame that I ignored your worth
his story never finished
don't know if they'll ever hear this
but I'm seeing all my demons as they're fighting with my spirit
I try to love you but it never works out
wish I felt love but no never works out
and that's why I keep my head in the clouds
so you could never tell him struggling now