Lights, camera’s but no one said action
Thought this was a movie way you see them gat’s blastin
Ducking under the tables
Don’t even know what is happening
Damn i shoulda missed class
Im hearing everyone panicing
Hearing screams from the hallway
Followed by nothing except
Thoughts in my head saying nigga your probably next
The hope vacates the room
Cause we all know the fact
We closed the door knowing damn well it won't hold him back
Fuck did I do to him
I didn even know the guy
My heart is jumping out my chest
It's getting cold as I'm
Thinking of ways to escape
Wondering how someone so quiet could have so much hate
Built up inside
And yo we started at 8 it's only 8:25
This nigga packed up his car
And on the way on his drive
He said today is the day I'm gonna take a few lives
I bought a couple of guns
And no body even asked why
Like I need an automatic just to shoot a deer
I hear his foot steps as it's getting near
My life is flashing through my eyes
And it's so fucking clear
How can I live anywhere in a state of fear
How can I live any where when I can basically get killed
By somebody who doesn't want me here
If Its the gang violence then I pretty much could just have disappeared
If it's a cop then he would get out in a year
No it's this mother fucker bugging out cause of some voices that he hears
And you let him buy a weapon like it's from Sears
How many gotta die
‘fore the government thinks maybe it should care
Why they keep them bullets flying through the air

But Lord if you get me through this I promise not to complain
Bout my mother that's doing drugs to the point she can't feel a thing
My father that barely visits cause too much is on his brain
Or the struggle for me to get out this hood that you put me in
But Lord if you get me through this
I promise to be more cool
Bout the scholarship essays that even got me into this school
or the many hours it takes
My brother didn make it through
How can he judge he don't know what the fuck I been through

Don't know why this world so cold III
Worked so hard III
Lost my soul
Don't know why this world so cold III
Been afraid
of things
I can't control

We got people dying keeping it the norm
What the hell is wrong with a little reform
With less violence maybe we could get a long
Have me go out side with fears of being gone

Some parents I’ve got
All I wanted was attention
Y'all always fighting every fucking day
And my best friend moved away
All alone no one looks my way
Everybody's mean so it seems
What I mean to say
There's a new kid at my school
Said what's up to me but that
would never work parents say because he's black
He might rob us
I grew up just believing it cause that
was what my father used to teach me as a fact
My life’s feeling hopeless
I want to leave it all but i need some folks to go with
Shoulda made me feel special im alone
And no one knows it
Cause nobody gives a fuck
Don’t have anyone to trust
Is anyone in this classroom?
I hear the police coming fast
My time is up won’t make it in jail
Man this is bad
I run and hide a couple of minutes would be the max
Shoot through the door why they thought this shit would hold me back
shoot through the door would tell them exactly where i was at
This looking more like there won’t be a happy ending but that
Wasn’t expected i see im finally out of time
Gun to my head let me clear my mind
Im sorry
Think I want to say I'm sorry life is hard
I thinking that I'm sorry that I pushed myself this far
I'm certain something's wrong with me a victim of my thoughts
I bought a gun, a simple drive to Walmarts all it cost

Damn

I just lost it
Looking at these bodies that I just now turn to corpses
Made everyone a casualty myself's who I'm at war with
Guess I should feel fortunate they treated my life with such caution